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Caleb is here!
We slept in his car last night, at the 22/H parking garage, because the douchebag UPD officer that was on desk when we got back from work at 3 am didn't have the revised IMF rules.
Grr.
We got in today and now we're quarantined in until tomorrow morning.
Argh I have no words. I need a nap.
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(2 Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Mes | Kill Me)
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[01 Oct 2004|01:43am] |
I don't want to be here this weekend.
I'm working tomorrow night (11-3) but if I at least go out on Saturday maybe the time will go quicker.
Omg so much to do and it's already 1:43. No more of this late night shit.
Promise.
(Hah.)
But really. If I didn't have to work I'd be on the train up to MD.
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(3 Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Mes | Kill Me)
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[30 Sep 2004|11:19am] |
There was a pipe bomb at the Watergate complex this morning. I live directly across the street. The cops were right outside my window all morning.
Andie and I overslept and got to lab extra late because of the detour because of Virginia Avenue being closed. We showed up a half hour late but the TA understood because he knew what was up.
'Cause we don't fuck around with pipe bombs and roped off streets in DC.
Oh yeah, hello IMF weekend!
ABC is filming Good Morning America from J Street and I missed it because I overslept and there was a pipe bomb and the bus was delayed and detoured and the IMF barricades detoured us as well I think.
Quick! Let's play 6 Degrees of Thursday at George Washington!
Lunch time on the Vern. Bye.
I'll be coherent later.
Bye.
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[30 Sep 2004|01:46am] |
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I am going to this on Friday night before I have to go to work at 11 pm:
VSA Movie Night!
Come join VSA for our first Movie Night of the Year. The feature presentation is 'Regret to Inform' This moving documentary takes us through the lives of widows of the Vietnam War. The movie is in English. There will be free food and drinks, including FREE FRESH POPPED POPCORN with butter! Stay after the movie as the fun continues into the night!
Time: 7:00 pm - 11:00 pm
Location: 1957 E St. Rooftop
Cost: FREE
Email: hughmt@gwu.edu
Phone: (202)242-5215
URL: www.gwu.edu/~vietclub/
Sponsor: GW Vietnamese Student Association
We Regret to Inform was the best lesson I ever did for Interdis back in high school. It's how I learned about Jeffrey and the war and...oh god I can't even describe it. But I was Barbara. And that lesson affected me more than anything else I learned in high school.
I can't believe they're showing it here.
I need to be there.
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| You don't bring me anything but down |
[29 Sep 2004|11:14am] |
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Yesterday was an okay day, overall. Mia got a job at the Hatchet, very cool, and the film I did last summer is finally complete and going to festival. Very cool news for both of us. I worked 7-12 in my home away from home, 2109 F. I had already eaten dinner but was craving cheesybread like whooooa when I got there so I called JoJo and made her come over to share the pizza with me. It sucked that I had to order a pizza so I could get the cheesybread delivered, and I shouldn't have eaten that much, but...oh well. It's college. I just reeeeally need to start doing crunches.
But anyway! Katie stopped over on her way back from Nicole's, and then JoJo showed up, and oh, I almost forgot, IT WAS MONSOONING. I was soaked when I got to work and had to wring out my jacket on the front porch. So yeah JoJo shows up and decides she's going to go back to Guthridge to get her water, and her umbrella almost bit the dust on the way. Katie and I were just standing there looking out the door and going "JoJo must be like 'Fuck this umbrella'" and "I told her that umbrella would be useless." I always have fun with those crazy girls. Love 'em. And I actually got some schoolwork done at work, especially after Caleb's cell phone died. :( for talking, but :) for schoolwork, ya know? When I got home I didn't go to bed until 2 am, ...I gotta cut that shit.
My 8 am got cancelled for today, and instead we have to go to watch the debate at 1957E tomorrow night. I had a 9:35 and woke up at 9 am exactly. I swear I have a little internal clock that I like to call the "Wake up, bitch" alarm. I have this insane tendency to wake up exactly a half hour before I have to be at class. For the record, this is why I usually show up to my morning classes A) in my pajamas or B)unwashed and skeezy. I always eat breakfast on the way there, and today for lack of cold beverage in my fridge I bought a soda off the cart outside Rome/Phillips. Yum, Sunkist orange.
I have a lot to do today. I have an Arabic test to finish studying for (my goal is to get in the 80's, which would be a nice improvement from last week. Then next week my goal is to get a 90.), a MidEast lit posting to do (remind me to figure out what on fucking earth is going on in that class...omg I'm so lost), some research to begin; I have to figure out when all my midterms are....blahblahblah fishcakes.
I'm not getting anything done by making a pointless post here.
I plea insanity, 'cause I can't leave and I can't stay.
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| For now I'm nowhere. |
[27 Sep 2004|11:55pm] |
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I bombed my math quiz from last week as well as my last Arabic quiz.
And I got a big "see me" on my homework that I thought was easy...until I got it all wrong.
I'm not smart enough for this school. We all know I wasn't supposed to go here.
It shows now.
The novelty of living off at college is gone and I want to go home; but I have no home. I'm moving out of Bristol and until Caleb gets his apartment we're just kind of in limbo.
I wanted to get out of Bristol but now I want to get out of here. I'm not cut out for this game or these expenses or this big city life (because of the expenses).
By the way, I lost a scholarship. A $7000 scholarship. Who knows if I'll be able to get it back. Might be grounds for a lawsuit but...who knows.
I need to focus but I can't. I need to get my ass in gear but I'm losing my motivation. I'm overwhelmed, yet indifferent.
And every day I think to myself, all I really ever wanted to be was a singer and a rock star but I'll never be either of those either. I could be a bar singer for the rest of my life and be pretty happy, but...for now I'm nowhere.
Chin up.
It's time to go.
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| "I was the bar singer." |
[25 Sep 2004|11:29pm] |
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I was deputy downer when I went to work because A. I was lonely and B. I had locked myself out of my room and didn't have my all-access card. Luckily Mia was on her way back from Gelman and could run my stuff over to me, along with a box of tissues that I desperately needed.
And then Katie and Amanda came to visit! I was excited. They brought cookies because apparently I needed them more than Katie did. We had a nice little time and then they left. I'm supposed to go over there later for movies and such. Yayyyyy.
And as a follow-up to my last post (and this is kind of like Katie's post, I think)...I'm not as lonely here as I think I am. This morning when I was sick, Mia went out of her way and stopped studying to take care of me. Dana down the hall gave me some meds that made me feel better. Rafi stopped in to check on me and kept me company for a while. Everyone cares about each other here, and it shows. Especially when we all get the same sickness, which I now refer to as HOVA-disease. And I'm feeling much better now.
So I was in a good mood (bored as hell, but in a good mood) until I got home and saw my LJ. I don't understand why I can't rant in my LJ (isn't that the purpose, sometimes?) without people thinking they can lecture me about it. I have been told and I am learning that I shouldn't worry about what other people think of me. I'm a big girl; I can make my own decisions; I can deal with my own consequences.
And so, with great respect where it is due:
Everyone has their own road to travel. This is mine.
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[25 Sep 2004|05:39pm] |
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I'm sick. Very very sick. What started out at some deranged form of food poisoning has turned into the worst cold/upper respiratory infection that I've had since last Christmas when I spent a week in bed crying over Caleb leaving.
But anyway, that's not the point, the point is I'm really sick and Mia had to take care of me this morning by making me some tea things and some vitamin C things to try and perk me up. Luckily she respects my deep appreciation for sleep.
Caleb and I have been talking a lot about me transferring out of GW. I don't want it to happen. But I understand where he's coming from. Whenever we talk about school I can always find something that I'm not happy about, whether it's something about class, the dorm, work, or just about anything. he wants me to be happy and be with him at the same time, and it's not working when we're still at least an hour apart.
And he's right. I never sound happy here, and sometimes it's because I'm really not. I'm the loner. I have friends, I have a lot of really cool connections here, but...I get lonely a lot.
I want him.
This feverish rant has been brought to you by alka selzter cold and shit.
I have work in an hour. Be back at 11.
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| Zoo Station |
[23 Sep 2004|07:57pm] |
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I think I bombed my Baby Bio test today. We all busted our asses studying but apparently it wasn't good enough. We'll see how that goes.
I feel as if I'm finally catching up in Arabic. Homework last night was really easy and I did pretty well with dictation in class today. It helps when we're learning phrases that Caleb has already taught me.
Andie, Jay, and I took the longest trip ever to the Zoo today. It was a loooooong hooooooot afternoon and it didn't accomplish much, but we did have a good time at some points. Traveling with Andie and Jay is fun because we all harass each other. Andie is trying to make up married jokes to tell me, like she thinks she'll be funny. Pssh. :P
I have to work 11-3 tomorrow night and 7-11 on Saturday, so that sucks. What sucks even more is that I won't get paid at alllll until Columbus Day weekend. Thank god, because I'm running out of money and I had to get my parents to transfer some money for me so I can afford the clinic tomorrow afternoon. BUT the cool thing is that after my shift on Saturday night Andie and the gang is going to shlep me up to LuLu's because I've never been there and I'm dying to go out for the first time since I've moved here.
Speaking of moving, I'm doing it again. Caleb moves into his apartment off post on October 15. The following weekend, I'm taking the train up to Bristol to meet him and pack the stuff at my house to bring back to MD. I'll still be living at the dorms but my permanent address will be with Caleb. Ironically, the weekend we'll both be home in B-Town just so happens to be Homecoming weekend. We're only going to go to the game if Mianna gets on Court though. We love that girl so much.
Things with my parents are surprisingly okay. My mom and I have been talking business a lot, discussing taxes and financial matters and military things like TriCare. Note to anyone who wants to get married, ever: it's a shitload of paperwork to get your name changed, and it's a shitload of more paperwork if you marry someone in the military. My father called last night while I was at work. When he told my Aunts Bev and Donna that I got married, they both said they wanted to have a party. My dad's been pretty nice though. He wants to have lunch sometime soon at Union or something, and he wanted it to be the three of us (meaning me, him, and Caleb) but the feasibility of getting Caleb down here at the same time as my father is slim to nil. My sister's the most broken-up girl of all, though. She studies college students for a living and for her doctorate thesis, and she's just so scared that I'm going to drop out of school and miss out on every possible opportunity ever. I understand her concern but she should follow the pattern of my parents right now lol. Time for the tears to be over and the professional face to come on, kids.
So yeah. Everything's good. Schoolwork is a tad overwhelming but nothing too unmanagable. Working with the time I have is a challenge but I'm getting used to it. My diet needs a little help and I think I'm getting the freshman 15, but...I walk enough that I can deal with it. For now I just want to get my schoolwork done and get ahead so I can play with scrapbooking; I want Caleb's present and my package from Staples to get here; I want IMF/World Bank weekend to be over so that it's Columbus Day weekend and Caleb is heeeeeeere.
I've been here almost a month and I'm not homesick.
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[22 Sep 2004|11:21am] |
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I got a 92 on my first Arabic test, but I have another one today and I am quite sure that I am going to bomb it.
I had a math quiz this morning and I am quite sure that I bombed that as well.
If things don't start looking up soon (i.e. my biology test tomorrow, maybe) I will consider myself a failure and transfer myself back to Abington which is where I am more cut out for success.
I'm being melodramatic of course, but it's more fun to whine and complain than to actually think about things like studying and tax forms.
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[17 Sep 2004|12:11am] |
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Today's the day....
The day I get married.
You can't see my excitement, but it's there.
Ohhhh it's there. :)
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[16 Sep 2004|08:15am] |
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There was a small accident with Caleb's hair...the good news is that it will grow back; the bad news is that he's going to look kind of bald for Friday.
If my work ever gets done today, we're gonna have the best bachelorette party ever.
One day more...
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| Three and The Walk of Shame |
[15 Sep 2004|12:47am] |
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So I was scheduled to work tonight and didn't go. I didn't even know I was supposed to be working until 11 pm when my supervisor called me to ask if I had gotten coverage. I totally misread the schedule. It was definitely my fault and I apologized but she said not to worry about it and we'd talk about it later. I don't think she's too happy in general that I haven't been able to make staff meetings, but if I'm out of town I really can't help it. I think I'm going to get fired, but if I do...then I do. I'll find another work-study job, although I would hate to have to do that because I like my job now (when and if if I show up....). I'm just angry at myself that I didn't even know I had work.
Some majorly messed up shit got said on the phone tonight with Caleb. A lot of crying on my part and a lot of confusion on his part and while we worked out everything we definitely got a taste of what it's going to be like to be married. But we know that we can work out our problems.
I ended up asking him the question that every girl wants to know before she gets married, and in the end I felt much better after he asked it back. And the funny thing is that he knew the answer before I even told him.
Caleb always did know me the best out of anyone.
I don't know what's going to happen in the next week or so, or the next year or so, but all I know is that we're in it together and we're going to get through it.
Now if only I were so confident about my school work...
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| About tonight |
[14 Sep 2004|09:44pm] |
The night a girl got handcuffed to a desk chair and there was no key to unlock her with; that's the night I realized I was a college kid.
And by the way, for those of you who may not have seen....
From Remington's over Labor Day Weekend....
1. Ignore the scratches on his head, it's what he gets for dying his hair so badass.
2. He's getting it dyed back tomorrow.
3. Guess who was drunk?
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| Crossfire Class |
[13 Sep 2004|06:52pm] |
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Paul Begala is so much hotter in person than he is on tv.
Makes me think of Josh Lyman.
Paul Begala is my new boyfriend.
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